For the first time, someone asked if I was expecting, and it was both sweet and awkward.
LADY: (looking at my belly) Oh! When are you … I mean, are you?
ME: Yes! July 5.
LADY: Oh. You still have a long way to go. You look farther along.
ME: Um, no. But I had a big bowl of pho yesterday, and I think the sodium kinda made me explode.
It was the truth. I was fat-cheeked and plumper than usual, as if the baby somehow gobbled a few pizzas and a pan of brownies without me. (Things have since settled down considerably.)
Pho king belly.
Then the lady asked the weirdest thing.
LADY: Are you peeking?
ME: Am I what?
LADY: Well, if not already, are you planning to peek?
ME: I don’t … um, I’m not sure what you mean.
LADY: You know. Boy or girl. Are you peeking?
ME: Oh, right. No. My belly doesn’t work that way.
I was confused. I pictured some kind of porthole into my uterus. Or something like Barbie’s pregnant friend Midge, with the removable stomach and pop-out baby.
Damn Midge. She makes it look so easy.
LADY: I meant, are you going to find out the baby’s gender?
I considered telling her that gender is a socially constructed concept. We will actually be finding out the baby’s sex, which refers to the child’s anatomy … but then I realized WHEE! We will find out the baby’s sex this week. Wow, that sure happened fast!
So, to answer her question, yes. I will be peeking.
I have two doctor’s appointments coming up this week, and as always, I am nervous — especially since one of those visits is with a genetic specialist, and it is literally his job to tell me what’s wrong with my baby. But I’m also getting to the point where I’m more pumped than anxious. Woo, I’ll get to wave to my little one on a black-and-white screen full of static again. BEST DAY EVER!
NEW THIS WEEK
Baby: Is the size of an onion, according to my iPhone apps. (I am not sure what variety of onion, but I’m picturing a sweet, bulbous Vidalia.)
Baby’s sex: My guess is boy.
Baby’s first national park.
Me: I feel good. I have had some round ligament pain, but it’s more like a dull ache or a tiny tug, and I don’t mind it. It reminds me that something’s happening in there.
I’ve also been having a lot of strange, particularly vivid dreams lately. Nothing about giving birth to kittens or anything like that. Just colorful, trippy dreams. It’s like dropping acid every night but without all the anxiety that I’ll never be normal again.
Some of the most notable ones:
* On Cyber Monday, everybody who went online turned into a robot.
* My friend Tod From Dayton (not be confused with Tod from Palm Desert), had to give Steven Tyler lessons on how to be a rock star.
* Adonis moved in next door. Like, the actual Greek god. It made borrowing a cup of sugar super hot.
* My friend Eileen took up a low-carb diet that consisted of only quail eggs.
* Heather and I met two men with ridiculous facial hair and helped them carry mattresses. They turned out to be editors at Tin House.
* My friend Agam quit his job as manager of an MFA program and joined a Doobie Brothers cover band.
* I was drinking a beer. Just one very big, beautiful glass of dark beer. And then I took Cheryl Strayed to my favorite place in Hampi, India, a little restaurant full of lavender scarves and clove cigarettes, where we sat on pillows, shared a dosa and wrote lovely things.
* North Korea decided to attack the United States. Specifically, they attacked Rancho Mirage, CA. But then Stephen Graham Jones, a professor in my creative writing program, thwarted their plans by distracting them with a fake Beach Boys band — just a bunch of golfers in Tommy Bahama shirts. While they were singing “Good Vibrations,” Stephen Graham Jones slipped the North Korean soldiers some jelly doughnuts filled with lethal doses of sleeping pills. ‘Merica!
Days until a dirty martini: 161
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What kind of DVDs are you allowing your child to watch in utero??? BTW — how would you feel about a little Maggie??